Out of Nutella(!)and some thoughts on Friday night :)

Good evening guys ;D!

Have you all challenged a fear food today?
I certainly have, and that's PASTA WITH MEATBALLS (not as dramatic as gif above, but yeah). AND BANANA CAKE. ;)
Lately i've become temporarily 'lactose intolerant'......
I would come back to the boarding house from school and craaaaaavvvveee milk and cake
but after i'm halfway through my cup, awwwwful stomach cramps start up :(...

I have a love/hate relationship with milk! yayyyyyy ^_^


stomach cramps and bloating also start up when i'm 20minutes into a meal
its just the weirdest thing when your body's warning you to STOP EATING, while still craving for tons of food *_*!!!!
Just don't ask when you see me bending double over the dinner table...

Headaches,mind fog, rashes, acne (uhhhhhhh) have also started to show uppppppppppp
and my midsection would balloon and bloat after every meal ( and we have P.E after lunch, which is juuuuuust great - _-!!!!!)

What my body's constantly telling me about cake...
(but not necessarily in the form of an evil stepmother *_*)

After bloating for about 30 mins however,  I find myself craving for food again! it's like extreme hunger's NEVER GOING TO STOP. It's eased in the past days however, and i'm finding myself craving for a variety now, rather than just cake, or just bread and jam.

gradually, i'm adding vegetables and fruit into every meal :)))))))) 

Would lovvvvee to meet anyone who's going through the EH stage of recovery too;)

Bad news: Sadly, I'm SCRAPING THE BOTTOM of my (and my friends' ;P  hehe) NUTELLA JAR (s)   :(((((((

Good news: Thankfully, it's SATURDAY TOMORROW!!!  and every saturday the school generously puts a jar of Nutella in the kitchen!

Having settled that, I'm proud to say that I had chocolate mousse with cream for dessert today ;')

although I still got terribly sick in the middle and had to throw it away

but it was a giant kick back at AN ;))))

Just completed a bake sale survey from my school ;) I neeeeeeeeeeeed more CAKE, MORE IIIIIIIIIIIIIICE CREAM :DDD!!

Keep eating your way back to recovery....

Tell the AN inside your mind to back off YOUR life!

xxx, Lily :D

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Update on the past days :))))))

Hellooo readers!

You cannot imagine how happy I was when I discovered my FIRST FOLLOWER. 

I only have one, but that's the world to me knowing there's someone reading my blog :) and the thought that i'm not alone in recovery is just a blessing :)

Now two of the BEST THINGS happened yesterday and today ;) Remember that I said I was craving Nutella...

1.My friend shared her NUTELLA with me.

Well actually she left her Nutella with me, and told me that I can use how much I wanted ;)))))And for a long time in half a year, I wolfed down four slices of toast with heart-warming Nutella.( The blessings!)

I would have been totally fine having another five slices:),but gave the jar back anyway

2. Someone in my class decided to bring me a big jar of NutellaaaaaaAAAAAA

MORAL OF THY DAY:

HUMANITY REALLY STILL EXISTS!

Nutella=HUMANITY. 

I think i'll do a post of Nutella tommorow..

Even Hitler likes Nutella

Please take a moment to appreciate this wonderful work of art

Tuesdays have always been the best days for me ;)

Or at least ED made me think so.

Every Tuesday, our school closes half a hour earlyyyyyyy,which means I could go to the gym and work out for HALF A HOUR MORE.

and adding on what I usually do everyday, that's about 2 hours of running on the elliptical machine. I would always feel refreshed and "alive" while and after running. But heres the irony: This was exactly the things that were leading me to my death.

Not long after a few weeks of running this length, i've been dizzy, having sudden heartaches, long and hard cramps in the legs and feet, pale and unhealthy skin...and many more.

Researching on how much exercise teenagers SHOULD be getting in a week, I was shocked however, to learn that half a hour a day, three days a week of exercise was PLENTY ENOUGH. And disgusted to learn that my body is crippling day by day as it has nothing left to burn when I exercise....

I know there are many out there who are still OVER EXERCISING ( yes you. No, its ED telling you that you're 'just being healthy'.) 

Please understand that this will cause heavy consequences affecting your wellbeing, and maybe even life.

WHEW.

I'm still struggling at not exercising, but I remind myself everyday that exercise should be only for fun, not weight loss ;) and slowlyyyyy, i'm getting there !!

Something from Latin (one of my favourite subjects!!!) to finish up the bloggggggg

My dog ate my homework ;)

Sorry not sorry :))))

Xxx,Lily ;) 

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